The best news I have heard in a long time

As of this moment I have cleared the virus. There is still a small chance that I it could still be there. The virus levels can fluctuate during the beginning of the infection so I go back again in two months for another check. But the chances of the next labs coming back bad are very low. So the way it stands right now I am clear of the virus and needless to say I am beyond thrilled. Thank you all so much who kept me in your thoughts. But I will also have to keep being checked for this once a year for years to come. But today I am happy!!!!!!

It's a good thing I don't carry a gun!

A guy here at my work just called to say he would not be in today because his girlfriend just lost their baby. So I tell the foreman he won’t be in today and why. And what he said to me just put me over the edge. He said well that is too bad. What was her (referring to the girl pregnant) problem what did she do wrong. Needless to say I lit into him informing him that she did nothing wrong. And he had better never say that again. How are people so stupid that they would think she did something to cause this. I can’t stand people and how dumb they are. I just hope nobody says anything like that to him or her. And heaven help us if they do and I hear it. I just want to take some people out sometimes.

Dr. Today and K's 5th Birthday

As you could see from no update I do not know anything yet. I did call the Dr. Office Wed. but they would not tell me anything other then yes my labs are back. They would not tell me what they said. I did not get the same girl on the phone. And the one I did get would not tell me anything. So I go back to the Dr. today at 2:30 and will know my fate. I am not feeling to hopeful but have my fingers crossed for good news. So needless to day today is going to go by very slow.

But on a good note Kirstin turned 5 yesterday!!!! I just can not believe that she has been here 5 years. On Saturday we had her Birthday party. I went really small this year. I had it at my mothers house since if I were to have it at mine it would have had to been huge. See if my neighbors see that I am having her a birthday part and do not invite them they will get insulted. And my neighbors have tones of kids. Just between 5 houses there are 16 kids. Then you add in the one’s she wanted to invite from school and her 5 cousins and look how many kids I would have had at my house. There would have been around 26 kids had I held it at my house. So this year we did it at my moms and only had 8 kids there. How nice that was.

Then Saturday night K and I went to the live taping of the finaly of the D.is-ney Cha.nel Games. And she got to see all of her favorite bands. There was the J-on.as Bro-ther.s, Mil.e-y C.yr.us / Ha.na Mo-nta.na, Che.et.ah Gi.rls and some othersI did not know who they were. We had such a great time. And to see the look on her face when the people came onto stage was just priceless. I know need to see when the show airs because there is a chance that we could be on TV cheering in the crowd. So needless to say she had one great 5th Birthday. Now next month on to G’s 2nd birthday.

So wish me luck today at 2:30 for good news.

One part of my labs are good

So I only have half of an update here. I went to the Doctor last week and he agreed with what I had in mind. To go ahead and run my labs again and if I still have a viral load to start treatments. I called yesterday to see if my labs had come in yet. Only half had come in. The part that is back right now is my liver functions and they are all ok. So that is good news I did not get any liver damage from how sick I got and my liver is doing fine now. I will have to call them back about the rest. The other test could take up to a week so I will wait to call them Thursday. Or I will try Wed. if I just can’t hold out until Thursday. All this waiting is just making me nuts. And I want so badly for the other test to come back fine. But again I am trying not to get my hopes up to much. But a little hope is creeping in. Keep you fingers and toes crossed for me.

I have been tagged

I have been tagged by Carole “The Journey From Here”. So here are the rules.

The rules:
1. Link to the tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some weird, some random.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs. Lastly, let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1.I love to color and I am very protective about my coloring books. In no way is anybody else allowed to color in my coloring books. I hide them and only take them out when no kids are around. If one of the kids does get a hold of one of my coloring books I just give it to them. It drives me insane to have a picture in my book that is not colored just right.


2.When I was younger I worked for Mc.Don-alds. And to this day that is still my most favorite job. I worked there for 6 years! If it had a better future I would have stayed there. And when I tell most people this they just look at me like I am crazy.

3.I sing and I really can sing I am not one of those people you see on A*meri=can I.do-l that have no clue. My problem is I won’t sing in front of people unless they are drunk so that leaves me only singing in a bar at karaoke. People have tried to get me to sing other places I just won’t do it. I guess you can say I have a little bit of stage fright but the drunks don’t scare me.

4.I love scary movies. If given a choice to see a chick flick or a scary movie the scary movie has got my vote. There is just something about getting your adrenaline going.

5.Same goes for Roller Coasters. I love them and just can’t get enough of them. If I were to ever win the lotto I would go on a world trip to ride every Roller Coaster there is. Again there is that adrenaline thing.

6.I was in the Marching Band. I play the Trumpet. I have not pulled it out in years so not to sure how good I sound now. But I was pretty good back in the day.

7.I want to go back to school to be a Genetics Counselor. After losing Emma and doing all the research once I found out about Tom’s chromosome disorder I found all the research very interesting. Also I would get to Counsel people who are in the same situation I was in. And I know I would have loved for the person counseling me to really understand what I was going though. They could only imagine how hard all of this was on me.

I’m Tagging:
Nobie
Artblog
Aurelia
Lily
Kim
Me
Neko

Isn't she beautiful

The good The bad and The ugly

I have been in a pretty low place lately for the most part. There are some days I feel good and hopeful about everything. But then most days I don’t. I am so scared to get my hopes up for good results the next time the Dr. runs my labs. I know from my past what it is like to believe that everything is going to be ok then you just get knocked on your ass. So I no longer try and have such a good out look. I know not a good way to be. But I always prepare for the worst now. That way if it is bad news I am not so devastated. And if it is good news then I get to be extra happy. So here I have sat for the last 4-1/2 weeks having no clue what is going on with me health wise. Very nerve racking.

As for Tom and I we had another big blow up last night. Once again he started to pack his bags but once again he did not leave. He called today and said he was for sure going to get the counseling scheduled but we will see. He has been saying this for a while now and nothing has happened. He also tried to make me feel guilty last night and told me he was going to live in his truck. I could not help myself but I laughed. I told him that is the dumbest thing I have ever heard.

The kids are doing great. I need to bring it to work but Kirstin had her graduation (that is from pre-school) pictures done and it turned out so good. And it took my breath away when I seen it. She in no way looks like a 4 year old. Where in the world has my baby gone? She will be 5 years old next month how could it be 5 years already. And I am not saying this just to say it but it really does still feel like yesterday that I gave birth to her. I can still remember ever little detail of her birth and 5 days leading up to it when my water broke. To think this beautiful little girl was once a 3lb preemie and look how great she is doing. You would have clue about her ruff start just by looking and talking to her. How proud I am of her.

Then we have the bulldozer Gavin. This boy is ALL BOY!!!! He is ruff, loud, dirty and loves anything with an engine (ie: cars, trucks heavy equip.). If I send him in the back yard to play I have to hose him off before he comes back inside. I am really not sure how he gets so dirty back there. But he finds a way. He is still amazing me on how well he can speak. Not only with the clarity of his words but the fact that he has been speaking sentences for a while now. Once again I find it hard to believe that he will be two this June 1st. Can I please stop time for just a little bit!

So that is all that has been going on around her lately not much just trying to keep myself sane while doing all this waiting around. I go back to the Doctor April 23rd. Lots to discuses with him. So if you all could please continue to keep me in your thoughts I would greatly appreciate it.