Gavin's fine but mommy had a hard day

All in all yesterday’s appt. went really well. The doctor told me that he is fine at the moment but wants to see him back in two years. Yes two years. Now I will have to remember to make that appt. two years from now. The doctor was concerned with his right tactical. He told me that the (I don’t know what you would call it but I will call it the string) string that connects to his right tactical feels a little short. And that as he gets taller this could cause his right side to not stay down and go back up. So two years from now they want to make sure that this does not happen. So all in all pretty good news nothing to worry about at the moment. He did tell me though that if this happened that he would need surgery to correct that. So let’s just hope that does not happen.

What sucked about the appt. is a little strange. Why I say strange is because the weirdest things bother me. The office were I had to take Gavin used to be one of the office’s in the OB/GYN practice I use. They have about 6 offices. The only time I ever had to go to that office was when I was 12 weeks PG with Emma for a u/s the week before I got my cerclage. This fact bothered me so bad. At one point I almost broke down into tears. Just walking though that door made me remember how excited I was that day to see my baby again. The baby I would never get to keep. I still remember that u/s so well. She was moving all over the place and the tech told me she looked great. How that haunts me to this day. I know it was just a check to make sure baby was still alive before they put me though an unnecessary surgery. But if only she would have done more the just take a quick peek at her at that point maybe they would have seen how sick she was. All they did that day was measure her crown to rump length and make sure she was still alive. Little did I know at that time how things would turn out. I left that office that day happy as I could have ever been. And now to be in that office again only brought me pain and sadness. I hope that two years from now that this urologist will be in a different location because honestly I don’t want to have to go in there again.

Today is the day

Gavin goes to the urologist today. I have my fingers crossed for good news that he won’t need any surgery. I would hate for that to be the case. Also poor G right now has some serious diaper rash. He has had bad diarrhea and it is just tearing his little butt up. I called the Doctor yesterday and she called me in a prescription but they have to make it so I won’t get it until today. Poor little guys butt was bleeding at one point it is so bad. I have tired everything over the counter but nothing seems to be clearing it up.

And I have to shout I am so happy with myself right now. I now own 8 pairs of pants and shorts in a size 6. Can you believe that a size 6. I don’t think I was even that small in high school. I am just so proud of myself. People are now telling me I need to stay right were I am at and not lose more weight. But I still feel like 5 or 10 more lbs would not hurt. I am in no ways under weight. If I ever get a working camera back I will take a picture and see what you all have to say. You people who read my blog don’t know me in person so you would have no need to lie to me. I think you would be honest with me and tell what you think.

As for said camera we did get it back but it still did not work. So we took it back again and asked them next to not give it back until it worked or to give us a new one. So the store sent it back to Kodak again. I think it should be back sometime next week. So I have to get a throw away or some film for my reg camera to take Halloween pictures.

So wish us luck to day that all goes well at G’s appts.

Feeling pretty good today

Well after being up 38 hours (well I did catch 1-1/2 hour’s worth of sleep yesterday between the night work and my day time work) I finally got to bed about 5:30pm yesterday. Needless to say I did not wake up until my alarm went off this morning. That is ware for me. I don’t sleep well so usually I am up starting any were from 1:30am to 3:00am. It is not too often I sleep to 4:00am when my alarm goes off. But I do feel refreshed this morning. And it’s a good thing since I have to also work my second job tonight waiting tables. Just waiting for the day I can stop all this craziness.

But one good thing is coming out of all of this other then the extra money. I am down 2 more lbs. And since the extra work I am doing now if physical I am also using mussels I have not used in a long time and I am starting to tighten up in all kinds of places. I have to say, which you would have never heard me say this before but I am starting to look good. It has been so long since I have felt good about the way I look. It feels nice to look in the mirror now and think wow I don’t look that bad. You might even catch me in a two piece if I have the need to wear a bathing suite. And it has been years since I would even consider wearing a two piece. Also feels so good to be able to buy size 8 pants. My goal is to get into a size 6 but I have not wore a size 6 since high school so I really doubt that will happen but a girl can dream can’t she. And if it never happens I am ok with that I am just happy that I got down to a size 8. Now to stay there will be the next battle.

Also it was nice to see my big check. Although I had the money spent even before it was written but the good thing is that it is another bill gone. So maybe this year we can do something fun with our tax return and not have to use it to pay off something. Life really does suck when you’re broke and living on the edge like we have been the last couple of years. Money does not make you happy but when you’re broke it sure can depress you.

Time to lock the Doggie Door

So Little Mr. G has learned that he can crawl out the doggie door. Friday I was getting K ready for school when she announced to me that G was in the backyard. So I go over to the sliding glass door to see my little boy with his hands in the air turning in circles smiling from ear to ear playing in the rain. It really was just too funny. He was having such a good time. That is until I opened the door and brought him back into the house. So yes we now have to keep the doggie door locked and remember to let the dog out every so often when G is home. K did this little trick too when she was little but it took her a little longer to realize she could go out the doggie door. And all though it is frustrating to have to worry about him getting out. It is very funny when he does. He is just so proud of himself. He got out on Tom Yesterday while I was out getting his Halloween Costume.

Speaking of Halloween Costumes this kids are going to be so cute. K is going to be Tink.er B-ell and G is going to be Don.ald Du.ck. I can’t wait to see them both all dressed up. I know when G is older he is going to kill me with these costumes I get for him. Last year I dressed him up as Chi.cken Li.ttle. I guess I have some kind of bird theme going on with him.lol

I am going to be dead tired again this week. Tomorrow I am going to pull the same kind of shift I did last week. Work all day tomorrow and all night then again all day. I just can’t beat the money I make when I do this. I am hoping to be able to do this once a week until we get all caught up. And how nice will it be once we are all caught up and I can work just one job.

Working Hard

Wow have I been busy. That is working my butt off. My second job scheduled me for 3 days last week. I usually only work Thursday and Friday night. But they had a few people taking some time off and needed my help on Saturday also. So only one day off Sunday. Then when I was at work Monday they asked if I could help them out in the field that night. So I worked in the office all day Monday then all night in the field Monday night. Then in the office all day again yesterday. When I got home yesterday I had been up since 4:00am Monday morning. Needless to say I was beat and went to bed a 5:00pm yesterday. The only good thing about all of this is that we need the money so bad right now. And since I make a pretty good hourly wage the overtime wage is awesome. Can’t wait to get my check next week with all this over time on it.

With my second income I have already paid off a couple of bills and I also get K’s after school paid for out of that. Her after school is expensive in my opinion. It is $50.00 per week. So that comes out to $200.00 or $250.00 per month if it is a 5 week month.

My next goal is to start buying Christmas. I will not charge Christmas this year. Cash only and I will not spend as much as I did last year. We went way over board last year. But last year K really wanted a car so we went ahead and got her the princess car that she wanted. And I will say it was worth the money she just loves that thing. I am just glad her driving skills have improved since the first time she drove it. Her first day out in that thing she ran into a wall. lol

So here I am back at work this morning and really wanting to go back to bed. So speaking of work I guess I had better get back to work and get some shit done.